I am finding out that a “maybe-divorce” feels somewhat like ” being a little pregnant.” I feel like I just pee’d on the stick and now have 308 days that I have to wait to find out if a positive or negative sign appears. And just like pregnancy it is nerve-wracking waiting for the time to pass. Other similarities include:
- Both involve heart burn
- It becomes increasingly apparent that you have been f*****
- You are nervous and scared
- Even if you were taught about” it” in your 5th grade Sex Ed Class you still wonder … how the heck did this happen?
- You feel nauseous
- Have to buy a new clothes
I am hoping that as time passes I will receive some clarity about who and what I want to be when this year is over. What do I want to do with the 23 years I have left on earth if I live to the median age of 77? What is important to me? What can I contribute to my community that is meaningful? Where do I want to live? How do I shield my family from feeling pain? Do I want to write another book? But most of all I want to figure out what makes me totally, completely and wonderfully happy and then… just go for it 100% in. Discovery is a wonderful thing, I am embracing it this time. And just like being pregnant I suspect there will be another person delivered at the end of all of this and she will be everything I have dreamed of because she will be exactly who she is suppose to be in the right here and now!
there’s also that maybe feeling of excitement when you pee on the stick. maybe yes maybe maybe maybe. maybe a whole lot of good can come out of this. and either way – new wardrobe!!!
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This in interesting. Of course, I have neither been pregnant nor divorced before. I’m happy I have my blogosphere community around to help out.
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