I would like to feel the kind of connection with a man that you feel when a newborn baby is first placed in your arms. The feelings of awe and beauty in what you have created make you feel elated.A sense of total dedication and belief in all the possibilities that lay before you, open to you, and bloom like a rose. The total acceptance of this person and the belief you can handle whatever lays before you with them. The way they fit so perfectly in your arms and automatically snuggle in, burying themselves deeper into your heart and soul.
I want the sort of closeness with my partner that feels peaceful and reassuring. A closeness in which what what I see before me is truth in all its glorious nakedness and not something dressed to cover it up.
I want a quiet and dignified closeness in which you know the person so well that they will tell you when you are wrong in a way that allows you you to hear it and know it is true because they love you enough to tell you. In a way that in reaching for your hand they are actually grabbing onto your heart and holding it gently in their hands.
I want a closeness with my sweetheart in which your love knows and acknowledges my flaws while gently trying to lead me to a better way, not through superiority but through genuine good will wished for me. A person who tries to concentrate on the good and not only acknowledge the bad in me. The kind of closeness that encompasses true forgiveness and understanding.
I want a closeness with the person in my life in which if I had to have a mastectomy it wouldn’t bother me that I had missing parts because I know you could let those go knowing that I have other parts that were just as precious and wonderful.
I want to feel a closeness with my honey in which talking to each other throughout a work day feels like a bonus, like a 5 minute picnic in a meadow full of warmth and happiness instead of feeling like a chore.
I want a closeness with my partner that at times needs no words. It is just strong and steady and something we can hold onto while feeling safe and confident when the gales of life threaten to pull us from one another.
I want to feel a closeness to my lover that feels like the biggest and best quality feather bed ever made. It feels light and airy and its a place where deep rest and relaxation can be found.
I want to feel a long-term closeness with my person not something fleeting and temporary based on whims and moods. But something strong and sure like a Boy Scout knot that won’t come untied unless you release the ends with purposeful intent.
I want to feel a closeness with the man in my life that is steadfast and steady like a dog’s love and admiration to his people. No questions asked, it is just there unwavering.
I want to feel a connection that is devoid of fear, mistrust and hidden agendas. I want this closeness to be pure and bright like a guardian angel or like the closeness God shows us when we are open to seeing it. Closeness that you guard with your life because you both feel that it is precious and worthy.
I want to feel a closeness to you like I never have. I want to have a deep never-ending connection with you.
I was moved after reading the last post and hopeful that you (quickly) would find the closeness with your husband again.
Now this…your heartbreaking words give voice to everything I’ve been feeling, too. I lost a soul-level friend to cancer last week and feel so old. My overwhelming emotion seems to be resignation that this is my life. I reason with myself that I need to be content with all the blessings I do have. It’s just no matter how successful or unsuccessful my life looks from the outside a part of me still cries over wishing for that closeness “I’ve never had.”
Big internet (hugs) to you.
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I so understand what you are saying. I wish for you that you too find that closeness you have not experienced and that you long for. Big hugs to you too!
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