So I have been wanting to write something all week but just haven’t had the time. Right now I am on the coast having an Open House to try and sell my house that needs to be sold due to the divorce. This is my heart and soul place. It it where I come to rest and rediscover myself. It hurts that this beautiful place will no longer be mine sometime soon. However, at the same time I do know that everything is transitory in life and it is all just on loan to us anyway while we are here on earth. Therefore, I am grateful to have had stewardship of this little slice of heaven for the past eight years and will wish the new owners as much peace and joy as I have had owning it.
The other day I read an article that literally changed my life and how I see myself. It pretty much explains why I have behaved as I have during B’s affair. After reading it it has allowed to me see myself as optimistic rather than stupid…a nice thing after four years of BS. Still, just about everyday B says he will give up HER IF I promise never to divorce him. I tell him that I already had committed myself to our relationship but had not even though I was under the impression he did. They deserve each other and I deserve better…so much better.
Anyway, here is the link. I hope it helps someone else as much as it has helped me. Also you will find a few pics from my soul’s resting place.
Gardy Loo Pismire 
Hey Sweetie.
Been thinking of you so much.
Sending South African love your way.
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‘If’…. if you do as he says, he will respond. You were already jumping through every hoop. He chose to stray. And now he still thinks it’s an either/or game. No. You have removed yourself from the bargaining table because you were already a bargain-! Love honesty fidelity with the same in return’ and he turned it down and then started a shell game for maybe sort of kinda not the same.
Mmmm no.
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Thanks for sharing this article, I like it too. Rose-colored glasses and optimism make life more palatable sometimes. I guess they are useful until they aren’t.
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